Songs for Sanity

We all know you know how To take the time to bow out Pull your pants up after going to the loo It's just something we all gotta do There was once this chick Together we were joined at the hip It was a terrifyingly wonderful trip Who threw me to the wolves Into a fire pit  Many have dreadful words to spit Well I'll be busy dancing with grit Who were they say that I'm the bad one? Twisted lies hover like fire flies I don't give a toss as we greet the sun I water my soul with bleach and flowers I'm not the only one with the powers Of mystics holding candlesticks With cauldrons of steel will  Standing fast and quick With quill in hand my words they flow The likes of which have never been seen Since the day of St Brigid's sweeping cloak All have a purpose and we have a voice To use for bad or good is the key to choice Rejoice rejoice rejoice

Mama's crying  Is he lying?  Is this true love I pray on a dove We wing it  Time to sing it Or should I not Stomach in a knott A little bit lost Let's go home Talking to dad on nature's phone Isn't the same Since we said so long Winter is closing in  darker in the mornin' Depression season Come say hello To autumn sorrow Money in a jar Life's the car begin a new Seatbelts on  time to groove

Forever seems an awful long time For little me to lose my mind Is there something I should know?  While travelling life's dusty road Is there something that can be done To make me a little less numb Their actions and words can't be undone I have succumbed to delusional hallucination Oh is this my final destination Have I found my home Walking this tightrope I've been blinded  Or am I just high?  Told to let it go to the wayside But I'm out in the open Even in my mother's arms  I cannot hide  from alarm bells deep inside I'm tired of this journey There must be a reason  God's holding me by the throat They say I imagined it all Gaslighting me is their twisted joke A vibe I get A vibe I get Help me forget Help me forget Help help help Before I slip  Into the depths  Oh before I slip

Shooting ego up into the sky Generation Y Here we go Here we are Its time we evolve into Gen R Short for Generation rejuvenation Revitalisation Re-birthing Resolving Karmic debt of past generations removing Oh what have they left for us to contend (We’re the revolutionaries) Earth is our responsibility This is what they left for us A broken system Boom and bust upon declaration We are here to make our mark We exist to issue out an impact We’re greater than ourselves While we’re stronger together All we have to do is develop tack And moxy You’ll see What a respon sibility

My daddy told me not to worry Then he downed his final tonic Oh glory sorry I couldn't save you I was too sick and couldn't deal with it I should never have set the name on you Everyone experiences youth That includes the both of you He made you feel like you were to blame For shame oh so lame Men who cried were made to feel weak That's society's ugly side We're all flawed after all  It's tragedy disguised as magic What happened? 

There's a thunderstorm in a nation Are you ready for translation? We call upon divine intervention  To make way for pure connection  Breathe and set it running free Pour it out on all the greedy Maybe this includes me I'm preparing to dive in deep Millions lie dead in holy lands Innocent blood coats your hands A lie to the people is a cry for help  I see you, yes I see you  You set your heart on a shelf Don't be afraid to let go It's time to release your ego Nobody is truly in control  Until we release what must go

I'm not afraid of you  Yes it's very true  I actually feel pity That you punished me All for loving you You wanted me dead To the wolves I was fed I burned to the ground A Phoenix rising you have found You wanted to control me Because you were lost Isn't it funny ironically  Your desire came at a cost Now everyone from your past Sees you for what you are Monster, a monster dressed in ego A mirage of the child you once were A mirror of their bullying behavior  It is fear that made them call me whore A raper no I won't say rapist That implies what you did not what you are It is control you were after  Not able to deal with the reflector God is men's maker Be good to remember He is also your punisher Oh, you're on fire within I see you are in emotional hell Maybe my views will land me jail Of a place run by men afraid of our divine For you cannot have masculine Without the divine feminine  For without femme in the ism they will never fill the chasm  they ...

I float onto the scene Nobody else but me There a fire inside I'm down for the ride Life's a dance Take a chance Like Viggo Mortenson I'm ready son So move my way Let's sway  Move out my way I'm elevated Some love it Others hate it Maybe I'm a shifter A gold trophy winner I know they talk about it I sip on their words A tonic I'm loving it I once fell through the gap I'll take you for dinner oh Tipping on the tightrope Wait what the hell Who that?  It's me Step back I'm in it for the laugh Let's get down Relax relax 

I'm not a player I just like to play I wanna have every single day I have a few screws loose Sometimes I can get a bit rude Come my way chics Looking for a lady  Girl you wanna get with this?  Say ooo what ya want to do?  Love comes and goes  It just goes to show But baby you're blowing my mind Work it for me now rewind  Oh please I'm on my knees Roll under the covers with me Fuck the rules I'm ready I like 'em top heavy  Juicy let loose with me  I want you to be my baby

You have paid a price Now I'm cold as ice  There's nothing here Except eclipse for fear Now you are biting your lip Did I feel you quiver  My tongue on your hip Want to nibble? 

I thought you were cupid Until the day you called me stupid You say I'm lazy? Maybe I am  I like to take it easy breezy on the daily You think I'm a loser!!?  What did you say that for?  Now Im kicking your ass  Oh hell no get the fuck out my door Now I'm sipping on whiskey  Feeling a little needy  I ain't looking for pity  Fuck men I'll find a Barbie doll Juicy baby the fairer sex drive me crazy anyway The years we spent together made me realize  There's no reason for me to cry my eyes out So go ahead and get gone I had already moved on  Now I'm sipping on a whiskey Feeling little needy  I ain't looking for pity Fuck men I'll find a Barbie doll Juicy baby the fairer sex drive me crazy anyway  So go ahead and get gone I had already moved on  So go ahead and get gone I had already moved on

I'm reaching out to the World Will anyone answer me  Set me free from my pain  My spine is shedding weight  I breathe under water Take me to the altar  Of my ancestry  So we can all be free  I stand idle in solitude  Confined by memory  Everything has purpose  To bring Him close to us  I am not your enemy  We only have one  That being belzebub  So hold tight to me 

I know you better than you do  That's what she said  So?  I'm walking on hot coals What's bleeding?  Both of our souls  Somebody call security  Be careful I have the crazy It's a disease bury my dead Didn't you hear?  Huh?  I chopped off my uncle's head  It's nothing he didn't deserve  He's such a perv (I know)  Uh oh here we go I tried not to upset you  But this time we are through  I've dug my brave bared my soul  Release the police  I'm a dog on a leash  That's what you preached (Aaaaahhh hahahahaha nah)  They say I'm a man eater  A relationship stealer  Someone find me a dealer  I'm high on all her lies  But you know  Uh oh here we go  I tried not to upset you But this time we are through  I've dug my brave bared my soul  Release the police  I'm a dog on a leash  That's what you preached (Aaaaahhh hahahaha nah) 

Won't you tell me where I am If not fading into your light I'm standing here naked and caged Oh please, I just want to be saved The vision is in his blood Jesus is my Messiah I can't help feel misunderstood  Oh how great your love is  I just want to go home to you This is my soul I give it to you Behold I have a guide A spirit of smokeless fire  My mind is broken  I want to be part of the Lord's tribe I raise my hands up  An I bare my soul I am unclean But I still have hope  That one day I'll deserve his love My God is good One day he will return All the lessons I have learned Behold the Lord for he's home  You wipe my tears  Rid me of ally fears How can I deserve this I repent please forgive I am alive for you I am shaking in glory Thank th stars for you  None compare to you I'm trying so hard to hold tight But I want to give up sometimes I lift up my fears to you  For I know you carry me too  Yeah I know I know I know  It's u...

Come to me and you will see A royal Shakespeare tragedy Happy to be me yet I'm not I'm just a corpse starting to rot I'm a walking protige  Doesn't matter if Im straight or gay Hip hip hooray life is music Yes I'm cupid with a twisted bow Who got shot in my funny bone  Can't ya see I'm quite the tonic Now add the gin I'm a party girl Not quite woman not quite man Bi? Straight? Trans? No I'm pan 🍳  I'll fry an egg on a handsome man Sexual innuendos?  Hell no, I'm just a joker Like Gaga is an icon of glitz and glam Both are rumoured to be a man I am genderqueer genderfluid Theres nothing much else to it She, her, sometimes they I am me and that's okay 

Insomnia strikes again Day and night are my friends I dance out on the vine  I wanna cross that line  Do I want a girl or a guy? I really can't decide  Maybe I'm bi or possibly pan Curious about a few Chickie's My sexuality is pouring outta my pen I'm a soft kinda lover on the prowl  Searching searching and reaching towards  Someone who will take me by the hand I'm not looking for you to carry all my woes Just someone who'll keep me on my toes Claire P. Berrigan 

So you say I'm too different to fit in  That I'm a tiger shark with an 80 foot fin On the prowl for blood, sweat and tears That I'm living on the high of their fears That I'm the psycho in a poncho  This is no joke that you wanted me to choke So who's the bad one really?  Are you still sure it's lil autistic me?  I once left with the wolf pack  Now I'm trying to make my way back It's so dark in here that I'm poised Ready for the onslaught of vicious poison  That comes in the form of rumour mongerers If you're someone who thought I was the monster All I can say is take a good look in the mirror I just want my bullies to know they're forgiven  But I can't help wonder why it happened  Houston I have found myself, yes I've landed Hard to believe I feel half dead yet I'm still living  Not sure I can hold on but I know God's song As he whispers through the trees at me (and you) Carry on my child, I am here to keep you strong I am fr...

I'm so very tired But here I am  I'm alive here I stand I don't need to be admired  God has me in his hands I often sense a beautiful lullaby  One that drifts through trees It carries us all you see From the darkest crevice to ocean bays I remember as a little child Like a rose of the Atlantic way The world stood still and I was wild Like a dream before the decay Breathe my dear (my dear) For I am near (for I am near) That's what father said to me One of these days you'll be free Like the feather on an angels wing Your hearts rhythm is why they sing Let me sail oh let me please I fear I shall weep (weep) My assailants cannot win  Their climb for power  Will lead them to fail (to fail) I present you all with the truth The greatest sin of sodom and Gomorrah  Was not of homosexuality (yes it's true) but was of violence and rape (yeah) I stand here naked before you I represent millions of God's daughters  Like them my innocence was taken  By a villain...

I breathe deeply  I wanna know the meaning To life and it's woes Cause it sure knows  How to keep us on our toes  Sing with me to a symphony  My head and soul collect melodies There is no us versus them Let peace guide every politician  I'm not the only one who wants more Please end every global war Bring in the peace mongerers Using hope as a weapon of peace Clap if you want everyone to be free Sing with me to a symphony  My head and soul collect melodies  There is no us versus them Let peace guide every politician  All generations gather together  To fight against misinformation  The leaders are using us as pawns This has been their plan all along  So.... Sing with me to a symphony  My head and soul collect melodies  There is no us versus them  Let peace guide every politician  No there is no us versus them Let peace guide every politician 

We're victims of the system  And there are more of us Autists with multiple illnesses Are invisible with late diagnosis  Shame on those who turned away We're survivors every single day There are those in power Who want to keep the disabled poor Fuck the test of means for disability  Put them in prison throw away the key They will never treat us with dignity We are worthy of awe after all We have been kept invisible  Well not any more no not at all It's time for the systems downfall Shame on those who turned away We're survivors every single day There are those in power Who want to keep the disabled poor Put them in prison throw away the key They will never treat us with dignity One and all it's time to rise  For it is our very time Take our hands we will stand  Have you heard the bells chime It's time to Neurotypicals a mighty surprise  Rise and join the fight for our rights  Break Shame on those who turned away We're survivors every single day Th...

Hello darling how are you?  You're a gleam shining through  Take a breath and hold on tight This is gonna be a hell of a ride Breathe in deep and release Everything you no longer need There has come a time of day For you to take a boat into life's bay Hold on it won't always be this way I can't promise that all will be okay But there is one thing that will never leave That is the soft caress of your genuinity  So don't give up my dear my Darlin Forget about all you fear and dive right in Each moment is a treat from the cookie tin  Some are nice some taste like crap Trust me you can handle all of that Breathe in deep and release Everything you no longer need There has come a time of day For you to take a boat into life's bay You've had some things on your mind Come enter this embrace of mine Take it easy and take care of you There is nothing else I ask you to do  It's okay to let time drift away Give yourself a pyjama day We'll eat to our hearts conte...

Alex is always in my periphery An emotion I can't convey  It doesn't speak to me like for others It's a spectrum thingy Where there is a magnetic surge of energy One that I try to grasp but slips away Alex is the eb and flow within my bones  Many emotions swirl in the well of my being But none I can name very often  Alex is my edges that sharpen at a sense of attack  It's a crushing sensation the has no translation  I cry out into the night trying to understand myself alas I am lost in my watery depths  Alexythimia a warriors song Emotions run deep but none I can identify  Which is why I cry a waterfall of fragile glass

My darling I never meant to cause you fear All I can say is that I hope you forgave me Whether Im alive or dead I love you my dear  There was so much to say but I chose to leave It's not because I never loved you Believe me I did and still do I know we went through a lot and so much more I forgive all the lies you spread before There was a flame and it burned us alive But like the Phoenix we all are up and can fly And to the mob who attacked my wings Despite everything I can still sing With the advise of P!nk I'll get up and try Just stand and look on with awe I may have died a little bit but I'm here to rise Despite it all (yeah despite it all)! -Claire P. Berrigan 

I feel like I'm being swallowed up By inner ruins and butter cups I awake every day feeling a little more Yet every time I try I feel weaker  Is this really my life I'm living  There is so much to do but I'm still grieving A past that seemed full of promise  There are moments I cling to To those who I loved and really cherished Sometimes I feel a bit lost and lonely  But this seems impossible you see The doc prescribed me pills and injection So I have a voices in my head shouting at me There's so much in my mind The doc says are false memories But please someone tell me How this can be  Sometimes I cry out to God and say I'm a mess why did you make me? I'm a wreck my suffering is like an ebb and flow Of the sea and ghosts I can't control Like Neptune the God of the sea Are you with me? Please help me I need relief and I'm on the edge  Teetering on sanity's ledge of good and old I've only ever wanted to be loved  since I was 6 months old  So very ...

All the skies have fallen down Yet I am adorned with a golden crown They say I'm insane but I believe (I believe) Oh the audacity we all have a touch of insanity I'm cradled in mother natures arms Safe and sound no need to raise an alarm I think I'll gaze at the water a little longer It's easier than dealing with finger pointers Oh mama what have I done? I find myself stumbling now A prayer upon my chapped lips I'm thirsty for a kindred spirit (this is it) I'm cradled in mother natures arms Safe and sound no need to raise an alarm I think I'll gaze at the water a little longer It's easier than dealing with finger pointers Oh this is it (Oh this is it) Where is my kindred spirit gone? (Where is she gone?) It's been so very long  (So very long) I'm cradled in mother natures arms Safe and sound no need to raise an alarm I think I'll gaze at the water a little longer It's easier than dealing with finger pointers I feel so very alone Even thou...

It's more than just a touch of the 'tism Brings hearts together like a colloquialism Maybe we all have a level of insane i am not all alone in my psychotic brain But all the same You lied. Why did you? Oh you lied It wasn't that I ran away  at the start of the day I was frozen in time Would anyone like to join me? A long time ago I took an arrow  I thought it was the end you know? I saw darkness set in your eyes With all the angry tears you cried You lied. Why did you? Oh you lied Though I stood alone  I was never on my own This much I know for a fact As long as I pray to Him Jesus Christ has both of our backs I forgive you a thousand times You lied. Why did you? Oh you lied It wasn't that I ran away  at the start of the day I was frozen in time  Give me a moment Just to hide  I died a lot inside Would anyone like to join me? A long time ago I took an arrow  I thought it was the end you know? I saw darkness set in your eyes With all the angry tears you...