Songs for Sanity

 The butterflies are active again There's a hurricane in my brain I want to disappear but not really  They unpacked my thoughts in Kinsealy  I'm sick of this mentality Nobody will save me except for me We all exist for a season Nobody knows the reason  Why not why not Love for life come and goes Like a bullet in a noose  Pull my trigger take a shot There's a feeling deep inside Now there's nowhere to hide There's a feeling deep inside Now there's nowhere to hide - Claire P. Berrigan 

 I float onto the scene No else but me There a fire inside I'm down for the ride Life's a dance Take a chance Like Viggo Mortenson I'm ready son So move my way Let's sway  Move out my way I'm elevated Some love it Others hate it Maybe I'm a shifter A gold trophy winner I know they talk about it I sip on their words A tonic I'm loving it I once fell through the gap I'll take you for dinner oh Tipping on the tightrope Wait what the hell Who that?  It's me Step back I'm in it for the laugh Let's get down Relax relax 

 My daddy told me not to worry Then he downed his final tonic Oh glory sorry I couldn't save you I was too sick and couldn't deal with it I should never have set the name on you Everyone experiences youth That includes the both of you He made you feel like you were to blame For shame oh so lame Men who cried were made to feel weak That's society's ugly side We're all flawed after all  It's tragic thats disguised as magic W hat happened? 

 Mama's crying  Is he lying?  Is this true love I pray on a dove We wing it  Time to sing it Or should I not Stomach in a knott A little bit lost Let's go home Talking to dad on nature's phone Isn't the same Since we said so long Winter is closing in  darker in the mornin' Depression season Come say hello To autumn sorrow Money in a jar Life's the car begin a new Sea tbelts on  time to groove

 Forever seems an awful long time For little me to lose my mind Is there something I should know?  While travelling life's dusty road Is there something that can be done To make me a little less numb Their actions and words can't be undone I have succumbed to delusional hallucination Oh is this my final destination Have I found my home Walking this tightrope I've been blinded  Or am I just high?  Told to let it go to the wayside But I'm out in the open Even in my mother's arms  I cannot hide  from alarm bells deep inside I'm tired of this journey There must be a reason  God's holding me by the throat They say I imagined it all Gaslighting me is their twisted joke A vibe I get A vibe I get Help me forget Help me forget Help help help Before I slip  Int o the depths  Oh before I slip

 My family gathered around the fire pit Wickedly laughing like a terrible wretch I know I got things wrong but I was a child My perverted uncles tongues wagged wild God help me if I ever reproduce My love would have to contend with ruthless No I could never sacrifice an innocent life Unlike my cowardly family holding a knife It's so jagged and they're creeps I hope they end up wailing and gnashing teeth Long distance far far away from me By then I'll have landed on my feet Am I wicked thinking t hese things?

 We all know you know how To take the time to bow out Pull your pants up after going to the loo It's just something we all gotta do There was once this chick Together we were joined at the hip It was a terrifyingly wonderful trip Who threw me to the wolves Into a fire pit  Many have dreadful words to spit Well I'll be busy dancing with grit Who were they say that I'm the bad one? Twisted lies hover like fire flies I don't give a toss as we greet the sun I water my soul with bleach and flowers I'm not the only one with the powers Of mystics holding candlesticks With cauldrons of steel will  Standing fast and quick With quill in hand my words they flow The likes of which have never been seen Since the day of St Brigid's sweeping cloak All have a purpose and we have a voice To use for bad or good is the key to choice Rejoice rejoice rejoice