Best Friend

I befriended

Manipulators, liars, gossipers over the years

I had hoped their company could protect me from my fears

But oh they let the cold in, they let the cold in

I wanted to mind them, love them, and cherish them

No romance involved

It was never meant to be misread

But you took it as romance instead  

How fucking twisted are you

You left me reeling, so deranged

Or maybe you have changed too

I love my friends with an intensity

It can’t be explained

Yet the person I never loved was me

The person I never loved was me

Until today

I guess that’s what I was supposed to learn

To be my own best friend

I’d say ‘again’ but it’s the first time in my life time

Self-expression is all of our life lines

But as young adults we just go overboard

I love my friends with an intensity

More so when they used to hurt me deliberately

I can’t explain

Yet the person I never loved was me

Until today

Oh the dark came over

I lost my summer self

But I still feel warm

As the cold wind came swirling through

While I’m tucked away inside my mind

Keeping warm with the embers of good times

Yeah the embers that echo in my minds-eye

The price for you is that you is that you’ll never be able to control me ever again

My manipulative ex best friend, number 2

I guess that’s what I was supposed to learn

To be my own best friend

I’d say ‘again’ but it’s the first time in my life time

Self-expression is all of our life lines

But as young adults we just go overboard

I love my friends with an intensity

It can’t be explained

Yet the person I never loved was me

Until today

I guess that’s what I was supposed to learn in the end

To be my own best friend